Help me I’m drowning… February 13, 2008

This is the final semester of my university studies and yet I have a strange ominous feeling that this is going to be the worst. I feel like I am not in control of many things which I should be in control of.

I am totally lagging behind for 214 and 311 and my notes are mostly empty coz I couldn’t wake up in time to attend lectures. In the past, I used to pon lectures too but I couldn’t still roughly catch what the tutorial was all about and participate. Now, I find it hard to participate coz of the ra-ra boys and the mere fact that I don’t quite feel like speaking up anymore.

I am unable to take charge of projects as I used to simply because there are so many of them that I am overwhelmed and I cannot keep track of which ones are due! 214 has 3 “small” ones and 1 “medium” project plus an individual one, 215 has 2 “small” ones and 1 “big” one, 311 has……countless. Have to prepare tutorial questions every week (in powerpoint, no less), have to play virtual game, have to make TWO presentations on our thoughts about the game plus one other dunnowhatpresentation. ARGH!!!!!!! How to remember so many?!?!?! In the end, I have no choice but to take the back seat and be passive, letting others take charge and remind me of when the deadlines are. Which I don’t quite like coz when you are passive it means that you have to give up some control and authority. Not my style. Bleahx.

My fyp is also lagging, although this is largely due to our anal supervisor who wants to have the report ONE week before the official dateline and he takes TWO weeks to read through a report when others only need ONE. Best of all, he can’t even remember our team and what we are doing, let alone give constructive suggestions! It is soooooooooo tedious to have to work on something for 7 months!!!

Just filled up my organiser with the various deadlines……….I feel like flushing it down the toilet bowl already. Zzzzz….