Pre-work jitters! September 7, 2008

Tonight is the last night I will spend as an unemployed person, for tomorrow I’ll be a productive, tax-paying citizen contributing to the happiness, prosperity and progress of our nation!

 

But as of now, I’m just a whirlwind of emotions. Happy. Excited. Scared. Curious. Proud. Panicky. Blessed. Worried. Nervous. Insecure. Sian. Stressed.

 

Will I be able to wake up on time in the morning? What will morning traffic be like? Will my colleagues like me? Will I fit in? Will they think I am fat and ugly and ostracise me? Where will I have lunch, and more importantly who will I have lunch with? Will I have to eat alone? Will I be able to learn as fast as I had proclaimed I would during my interviews and live up to my supervisors’ expectations? Will I fail them? Will my job scope interest me? Will I be bored stiff and doze off in the office? Will I hate my job from Day 1???

 

OMG I don’t wanna go to work already lah!!! I just wanna curl up in bed and sleep in late and stay at home and watch tv everyday for the rest of my life!!!

After the love is gone September 7, 2008

I recently changed my msn add (due to *ahem* reputation issues) and I’ve been keeping track of who has accepted me and who has yet to, just in case msn screws up or some people dunno who I am. Anyway, the point is, I realised that a certain someone (let’s call him J) has yet to add me.

 

J is my ex-boyfriend and we dated for a short while back in…… 2005? Yups. And we got along quite well and had quite abit of fun……………. Ok, fine! I lied! It felt awesome being with him and I cried buckets for months. Zzzzzz………

 

So, the question is, why wouldn’t he add me to his msn list? Well, let’s see……….

 

Possibility 1: Maybe he hasn’t been online? (Not possible, coz I noticed he was the sort who came online everyday.)

 

Possibility 2: Maybe he doesn’t know the msn add belongs to me? (Not possible, unless he’s really stupid since my new add is pretty self-explanatory.)

 

Which leaves us too……..

 

 

Possibility 3: Maybe he hates me for breaking his heart and leaving him 3 years ago!

 

 

 

DING DING DING!!! I think we have a WINNER here!!!

 

Which would also explain why he hasn’t added me to facebook yet. -_-

 

I really don’t understand what kinda grudge could he possibly bear??? Firstly, HE was the one who wanted to break up with me (ok ok maybe I did something wrong too). Secondly, it has been 3 freaking years! Like, get over it man and move on!

 

Lastly, which I think is the part that baffles me the most, why must someone use hatred as an excuse to get over their ex??? I remember he once mentioned that he used hatred to get over his first gf, which was back in JC. And ever since then, he has not spoke to her ever. So I guess I’m not exactly the first.

 

But what I don’t understand is, is it really that hard for 2 people to be normal friends even after breaking up? I mean, it was beautiful while it lasted, so why must things turn ugly and both parties hate each other to the core? There has to be some form of chemistry that brought 2 people together, so wouldn’t it be perfect if they could continue being friends and share secrets and problems and then end up being each other’s bestman/ maid of honour? (Haha.. Sorry just watch Made of Honour last night) By converting your hurt into hatred and channeling it all onto 1 person, not only do you lose the one you love, you lose a potentially very very very good friend as well.

 

So, to YOU – I really hope you can put behind everything that happened back then and let’s all be friends again. You’re a sensitive, humorous and caring guy and I would really love to get to talk to you and catch up with you.

Officially employed! September 3, 2008

Went down to Capital Square to sign the contract with Bloomberg, marking an end to my 3 months job search and also a beginning of a new chapter in my life. Haha… A new chapter that involves waking up at 6, squeezing with 1 million Singaporeans on the bus and MRT so that I can reach the office at 8am. Hmmmmmm……… That actually sounds more like revisiting an old chapter of my life – back to the secondary school and JC days!!!

 

Nonetheless, I have to say that I am grateful for everything given to me. I really wanted the job, given its great working environment and awesome pantry. Well, the salary package just sweetens the whole deal, but of course we’re not mercenaries who work solely for the money right? *winks*

 

P.S   I had a feeling that things will go well today coz I played Wahjong on Viwawa last night and I lian zhuang, like, 5 rounds? Which never happened before!!! Haha… Maybe someone up there wanted to gimme a sign!

Sec 4 boy killed in car accident September 2, 2008

Just read from ST that a Sec 4 guy died after getting into a car accident while driving his brother’s car illegally. Of course, since he is only 16, he did not have a driving licence, but according to his friends he has been driving for quite awhile already.

 

Well, if you ask me for my opinion, all I can say is……

 

SERVES HIM RIGHT!

 

I know you’re probably thinking that I am being a little too harsh. “Oh but he’s just a boy!” “He’s too young to die!” and blah blah blah. Sorry, but I think he brought this upon himself. He and his idiotic family.

 

Please don’t tell me that his family, especially his older brother who owns the car, does not know that he’s been driving around. Like, hello??? You mean you cannot tell that someone has been driving your car around behind your back meh?? Wah then alot of people can just steal your car, drive and then put it back the next day and you wouldn’t even know!!! 

 

And what kinda mother are you if you don’t even know what your son has been doing behind your back. Sorry, I meant SONS. Clearly the older brother must have been the one who taught the younger one how to drive. Unless, of course, he’s a boy genius who just woke up one day and suddenly knew just how to accelerate, brake and PARK! If that’s the case, I think Bt Batok Driving Centre and the likes can just close down already.

 

And please don’t scream at me for my lack of sympathy. Would you think he deserves any sympathy if he hadn’t killed himself but instead knocked someone else down and killed an innocent pedestrian??? Obviously not right???

 

My only words of condolence to his family? I hope you can get over the guilt of murdering your own son/ brother.