On friends… January 20, 2008

For a very long time, I’ve always envied those around me whom always seem to have loads of friends around them to keep them company everyday. Their blogs are constantly loaded with photos of the week’s recent events and happenings. A multitude of smiling faces, capturing the who, what, where, when and how.

While I look through those, I can’t help but reflect on my own life. It’s not that I don’t want friends… And it’s not that I don’t have friends at all… But somehow… Arghhhh I can’t explain.

When JC ended, I told myself to look forward to uni life coz I would be able to start afresh. Now that uni life is almost ending, I am telling myself the same thing again – “Maybe things will be better/different when I go to work.” But will it really?

Then again, when I look back at what has happened, I can’t help but ask myself, “Have I really made an effort to maintain my relationships with my friends?” Perhaps if I tried a little harder, shown a little more sincerity… Perhaps if I were more outgoing and joined my friends for lunch after class or even took the initiative to ask them for lunch… Perhaps if I had been more active and joined more clubs or societies… All those possibilities, all the answers that I would never know.

Is it coz of the boyfriend that I have forgotten about the importance of friends? Or is it just me? Will I live to regret it if, suppose, the boyfriend leaves me one day? Or will I be happy leading a secluded life where there is only him and me?

DRIVE SAFELY EVERYONE!!! January 15, 2008

Today felt like Monday… Maybe its coz I didn’t have school yesterday. Lol.

School was absolutely dull. Like, what’s new right? Felt totally out of place at 214 being the only year 3 (expected) and was ostracised again during 311 with Wen (TLD!!!) What a bad start to week 2…… Zzzzz……….

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Witnessed an accident on my way to shenton way which totally stunned me. Saw a motorcyclist fly off his bike and skid across the road on the AYE and I was only 2 car-length away from it. Thankfully, he was not seriously injured and could still stand up. Think the car was cutting into the left lane without signaling and didn’t see the motorcyclist. Pity the other poor car who swerved to avoid the bike and hit the bumper along the highway though.

I was so shaken up by the accident that dear had to hold my hand while I continued driving. All that was in my mind was that I could have been the one involved if I were just a lil faster. Also thought about what I would do if I got involved in an accident one day…… Man I think I will be so freaked out that I will cry lor!!!

I know it sounds morbid to think about accidents and stuff. But surely one day, somehow, I will get involved in an accident right? Haha I know, touchwood.

Ok ok… Flush all the negative thoughts out of my head!!! Choy choy choy!!!

Jobless January 3, 2008

Met up with Hanyee and Grace today. Heard from Hanyee that banks are having head count freeze and even dean’s listers are having difficulties getting a job. Hoho… Great work man.

 

Is it just me or are those born in the year of the tiger particularly unlucky? In sec sch, we were the pioneer batch of social studies students, which left us having to mug over some useless subject which is about to get scrap (or so I heard). In JC, we were again the pioneer batch who had to do project work, which is about to get scrap (confirmed). And we were the pioneer batch who did not have to use SAT to get into uni, which is good for some, but for people like me who already spent money on guidebooks and the stupid test, it was money down the drain.

 

 

Maybe I’m thinking too much.

 

 

Or maybe its a sign that I should apply for the IBF position?

Bye Bye 2007! December 30, 2007

Currently hooked onto this!

 

It looks creepy, but its not that bad actually. Has a mix of problem solving challenges as well as ass-kicking fighting scenes. Best of all, it doesn’t have those eerie music that keeps repeating in your head even after you stop playing.

 

Can’t imagine New Year’s Eve is coming soon. Felt like it was only yesterday when I was lamenting over how fast 2006 had flew by. This only reminds me of the fact that I am about to graduate in 6 months time and I am still unemployed. And it does not help that my mum keeps nagging at me to approach my uncle for help since he has contacts. Somehow, I don’t feel exactly confident of my capabilities and I really do not want to embarrass him. And then, there is that overseas internship thingy. Sigh.

 

I want to be a tai tai……….